Hi, my name is Paige, and I have a few things to talk about. But before that, let's get some stuff out of the way. First things first, I'm a Christian. This does not mean I'm trying to shove my beliefs down peoples throats, and/or convert them from whatever they were before. I'm just here to share my experiences and hope some good will come out of it. Secondly, I struggle with social anxiety and persistent depressive disorder and am seeing a therapist. Some other "interesting" stuff about me is that I love anime, YouTube, singing, makeup, sfx stuff, etc etc. I'm also not very good at writing, as you will probably notice the more you read. Oh yeah, and this whole blog is probably going to be full of all of the interests I've mentioned, just warning you. Now that we've got introductions out of the way, we can talk about other stuff.
So I'm really bad at praying. If I'm being honest, I think it's tedious and boring, even though I know it's really important. Therefore, I have to really push myself to pray even just a little bit throughout the day. I don't know why it's so hard for me to do because I know it is essential for my spiritual health, but I can't even pray in small group. I think after learning the importance of prayer, especially in my life, I definitely appreciate it more. So I'm working on aligning my prayers with God's will. Now, this is going to take a long long time. But I'm starting small by not just praying "thank you, forgive me, please give me this, amen" prayers. I'm trying to start talking to God like a person, as if he was right next to you. Vent, yell, cry, lean on Him. He is your support and your rock. I still have a hard time talking to God like a person, but I'm working on it. Soon it will be like second nature to talk to Him throughout the day as if He were your best friend you tell everything to. It's really awkward at first but you get used to it. Oh, and even I forget this sometimes, but God is there for you. As in, He is like the perfect best friend. He listens, supports you, is a shoulder to cry on, and gives you advice. It's really perfect. And He's loyal. If you run away, He's there sitting patiently, waiting for you to come back. I really take him for granted a lot. But sometimes you just need a new point of view, and all of the sudden you can see things clearer. Anyway, I'm rambling. The point is, God will always be there for you. No matter what.
"Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing praise. Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven." -James 5:13-15
Amen to that girl! XD
ReplyDeleteYeah, that's what I do with God too, I try to pray like I'm having a conversation with Him most of the time. Though it depends. Sometimes, in my mind He's more of a friend and sometimes He's more of a father. Sometimes I'm more formal in my prayer and sometimes I'm more casual, just depends. XD But yeah, I always figure that He's always listening anyway, so when I'm "talking to myself" i talk like I know He's listening and like he's walking beside me and just nodding, or shaking his head and face palming XD